Busy couple of weeks, pals.
Next on the chopping block is Carrie Mesrobian's
Perfectly Good White Boy. Let me preface this all by saying that Carrie came to speak to my class, and she was brilliant, and super real, and I am super into her approach to young adults, and people in general, and how life can be kind of sucky and how our approach to sex is totally misguided and weird. ALSO, I won a copy of
Sex and Violence in a drawing we had, so let's just say I'm pretty biased in Carrie Mesrobian's favor.
Reigning it all back in, however, I can still say with complete neutrality that
Perfectly Good White Boy is a perfectly good read indeed.
...which is interesting to say about a story where not much happens. There is no big plot arc. No mission, no saving the world or fighting The Man. According to the inside jacket flap, it's a "powerful and wrenching portrait of a teenage boy on the precipice of the new American future". I think if I was to take this novel, and also my other recent read (
Reality Boy) as indicators of the future of America, I would say this: America has gotten to the point where it doesn't need to strive in any particular direction, and so we are all standing about. All that extra time we have on our hands, thanks to robots and microwaves, only serves to illustrate the fact that we have no idea what the hell we are doing.
It's one thing to look at life and see opportunities. It's another thing to be told you have so many opportunities, and to to realize that if it doesn't matter what you choose, then all those opportunities and possibilities are, to borrow from the jacket flap yet again, "disposable".
Oh, I've made myself depressed just writing that.
At any rate, in the story of a
Perfectly Good White Boy, not much happens. The White Boy in question, Sean, attends his final year of high school, where the only "What will happen??!" plot line was if he was going to successfully join the Marines without his mom finding out (spoiler: she doesn't find out until he tells her). There is an absent, alcoholic father, but he doesn't cause any trouble. There is a wedding being planned throughout the whole novel, but it goes off without a hitch. The characters do drugs and have sex, but nothing really bad happens because of it.
The best part, for me, was the relationships that Sean and Neecie have. Sean hooks up with a hot girl over the summer, but she dumps him with the "possibilities and unknown future" speech right before she goes to college, but then continues to sleep with him on the DL when she's at home, depressed. Neecie is the secret side piece for a popular jock, and it makes her feel terrible because of how he treats her, but she can rationalize it with the idea that she "knows him" and he's "opened up to her". I should mention that these are not quotes from the book, but lines that you will hear over and over again from women who have become emotionally and sexually entangled with a man who, while he may indeed be vulnerable and in need of her compassion, is also treating her like he's ashamed of her outside the bedroom, and making her and her needs feel unimportant and unloved. But she'll keep coming back to him.
I knew I would love this book when Hallie was not-breaking-up-breaking-up with Sean just after sex, with a really shitty "It's not you it's me and don't you see" speech, and instead of being present or engaging in her little fantasy of emotional detachment, he was fantasizing about what she would do if he just pushed her out of the car and drove home. And what would it be like if he left her with her shoes, or should he take her shoes? But he would probably leave her phone, because he wanted her to suffer, but not come to real harm. And so on... I laughed out loud, because I have definitely had that moment, when I was trapped in a space with someone, and they decided that would be the perfect time to say something awful and hurtful in a kind way, and I just had a rage-blackout fantasy about doing something really extreme in response.
Hahahaha, I'm still laughing. It's like the scene in
Silver Linings Playbook where Jennifer Lawrence decides she isn't going to sit there in the diner and listen to Bradley Cooper judge her and tell her she's crazy, and so she just destroys the table and storms out.
Spoiler: Sean doesn't leave Hallie on the side of the road, he drives her home like he's supposed to.
I think a lot of high school age and early college age kids would find these relationships reflected in their own lives. At least, that's what I said in class, mumbling down into my lap at the end about "Don't we all continue to make these really shitty choices because we're starving for affection?" Maybe it's just me, but I don't think it is. Also, I'm nearly 30, so that should speak to the longevity of this type of story. I kept forgetting that I was supposed to be reading about a White Boy. This was about Perfectly Good Humans (even though to the best of my knowledge, all the characters were white. Whiteish. Or unknown). I think making crappy choices and having sex are two things that people do almost universally when they are young. And old. Carrie was big on the idea that we can have sex without being bad people, and that we deserve happy relationships and that the two don't always go hand in hand like we want them to. It's not the Demon Sex that makes you sad, it's the non-relationship that makes you sad. Sex is never going to be as damning nor as redeeming as media and religion want you to believe.
The other book I read recently kept getting confused with
Perfectly Good White Boy in my head, although the main bits of the story are unlike each other. In A.S. King's
Reality Boy, Gerald has had severe anger issues for most of his life, possibly stemming from the fact that his eldest sister is a legitimate psychopath and has literally been trying to kill him and his other sister for most of their lives. The three siblings were stars of a Nanny-fixes-the-problem-family style reality show, and he has been immortalized on television as the kid who expressed his anger by pooping on everything. And now he is 16 and trying as hard as he can to distance himself from his evil sister, and his mother who doesn't love him or his good sister.
All the action, and relationships in this book were a little less realistic than Mesrobian's, but they didn't step too far away from reality. The love interest, Hannah, has her own family problems, which cause her to act almost as weird as Gerald, and causes the two of them to inadvertently hurt each other. But at the same time that they're fighting, she still needs a ride home. Have you ever had to do that, give someone a ride when you've both just been fighting? Sometimes you do it because you're a doormat. And sometimes you do it because you're still friends under all the personality conflicts, and a deeper part of you recognizes that.
I really enjoyed how the flawed characters showed how much they were trying to hold it together, but without hiding the fact that they are flawed people. Gerald and Hannah really are victims of their families, and they are also still children -- desperate to do right and be good. They embrace the fact that they are different, and hold on to the things that are important to them, but like all humans, they are reaching out for a connection to someone else despite the quirks that might get in the way.
Also, I devoured this book because I was anxious to see if the evil characters would get their comeuppance. Spoiler: they don't really, but it was more gratifying to see the good characters escape and be granted their own lives, rather than to see vile punishments get doled out.